I can’t be the only one who feels like I’ve been struggling in school this semester. I feel both the desire to try hard and the desire to give up. I want to push through, but I also want to just stop. Homework, sports, and friends can be just a bit too much to handle at times. Balancing those three things, and many more, is actually quite difficult. Adding two AP classes makes life all the more difficult.
I have learned a lot in both my AP classes, but at a cost. I have learned at a cost of lower grades than normal, large amounts of work, and general unhappiness. The biggest obstacle I have faced is being happy despite work. I, like many others, hate work. I hate it when I know that there’s always going to be more work to do no matter how much I’ve done. I learn, but have I enjoyed the process? I wonder how many others feel the same. Juggling all the facets of life isn’t fun; I’ve done my best, but I feel as though the struggle outweighs the reward.
Despite a somewhat dreary semester, I have thought of a few things to help my general well being next semester.
First and foremost, I am going to try and take the work “tired” out of my vocabulary. It’s true that when work is overwhelming people often tire out. However, when “tired” becomes a part of our everyday selves, we know that something is wrong. In my personal experience, simply saying “I’m tired” is an easy out for not doing my best.
Second, I am setting a goal of enjoying every day and every week. Far too often I try to “survive” until I can get to the weekend. Then the weekend arrives and I have two days of solace, but the cycle starts again on Monday. My goal is to enjoy life despite the work and pressures around me.
Thirdly, I am going to attempt to do my assignments well. I can’t think of how many times I’ve sat down to do an in-class essay and made a deal with myself to do “okay” on this one and “great” on the next one. I sit down to do the essay I’m supposed to do “great,” and I make the deal with myself again. I’m going to try and stop making deals with myself.
These are a few of the frustrations I’ve faced and some of the goals I’ve set. Who knows if these goals will turn out to be like the majority of New Year’s resolutions. I may not follow through on my goals, but I sure am going to try my best.