Obstacles & Goals

I can’t be the only one who feels like I’ve been struggling in school this semester. I feel both the desire to try hard and the desire to give up. I want to push through, but I also want to just stop. Homework, sports, and friends can be just a bit too much to handle at times. Balancing those three things, and many more, is actually quite difficult. Adding two AP classes makes life all the more difficult.

I have learned a lot in both my AP classes, but at a cost. I have learned at a cost of lower grades than normal, large amounts of work, and general unhappiness. The biggest obstacle I have faced is being happy despite work. I, like many others, hate work. I hate it when I know that there’s always going to be more work to do no matter how much I’ve done. I learn, but have I enjoyed the process? I wonder how many others feel the same. Juggling all the facets of life isn’t fun; I’ve done my best, but I feel as though the struggle outweighs the reward.

Despite a somewhat dreary semester, I have thought of a few things to help my general well being next semester.

First and foremost, I am going to try and take the work “tired” out of my vocabulary. It’s true that when work is overwhelming people often tire out. However, when “tired” becomes a part of our everyday selves, we know that something is wrong. In my personal experience, simply saying “I’m tired” is an easy out for not doing my best.

Second, I am setting a goal of enjoying every day and every week. Far too often I try to “survive” until I can get to the weekend. Then the weekend arrives and I have two days of solace, but the cycle starts again on Monday. My goal is to enjoy life despite the work and pressures around me.

Thirdly, I am going to attempt to do my assignments well. I can’t think of how many times I’ve sat down to do an in-class essay and made a deal with myself to do “okay” on this one and “great” on the next one. I sit down to do the essay I’m supposed to do “great,” and I make the deal with myself again. I’m going to try and stop making deals with myself.

These are a few of the frustrations I’ve faced and some of the goals I’ve set. Who knows if these goals will turn out to be like the majority of New Year’s resolutions. I may not follow through on my goals, but I sure am going to try my best.



One thought on “Obstacles & Goals

  1. Drew, I can relate to a lot of the frustrations you outline here — and to the goals you’ve set yourself. I often feel like I find myself simply surviving, day to day, figuring that at some future date (when life is less hectic), I’ll pursue joy. I think it’s so important to recognize that life is what we’re living NOW, and that we need to find ways to pursue joy NOW, regardless of circumstances. It’s been an ongoing life lesson for me — something much easier said than done — and I think it’s significant that you’re already working on it now.


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